Psalm 73:25-28 (TLB) Whom have I in heaven but you? And I desire no one on earth as much as you! My health fails; my spirits droop, yet God remains! He is the strength of my heart; he is mine forever! But those refusing to worship God will perish, for he destroys those serving other gods. But as for me, I get as close to him as I can! I have chosen him, and I will tell everyone about the wonderful ways he rescues me.
How is it possibly Monday already? I work a four-day week so one would think that a three-day weekend might end the Monday blues but not so much. My daughter and grandson came over yesterday. After church, I spent the afternoon with my littlest love. He is growing so fast. Even though he is only two, he isn’t a baby anymore so when he crawled in my lap to take his afternoon nap – I relished the moment. Chores waited. Time stopped and I rocked my precious little hunk of love. I cannot explain the difference between a child and grandchild but those who have been blessed with both understand. Maybe it’s because I am not responsible for his upbringing but rather get to enjoy him fully. I have no idea but I do know that I love his presence. To see his little face, to hear his laughter, to watch him discover this great big world he lives in and all the new things. There is nothing that brings me greater joy and peace than my Judah.
Whom have I in heaven but you? And I desire no one on earth as much as you!
I joked with a friend at church that God must know I love him because even though my grandson was visiting – I made it to church. The truth is that even though I love that little boy with my whole heart, I have come to the understanding that I am nothing and have nothing without the Lord. He is my Shelter. He is my Place of Refuge. I have placed all that I am, everyone I love and all that I have in His Hands because there is no one that can take the place of my Lord… not even the tiny tyrant who stole his Grammy’s heart. What is most precious to you? What do you value most in life? The treasure of our heart is often discovered by the accountability of our time. Where would you rather be? Who would you rather be with? This is your first love.
For many years, I would tell you that Jesus was my first love. The Keeper of my heart and Lover of my soul which would be an accurate account of His Love for me. His Love for me is perfect. (I John 4:18) However, before time stood still in my life, I had many other loves that took priority. I was portioning out my time to worthless things that seemed like good things and missing the point of everything. For three long years, I spent hours alone caring for our son. My husband and family were two hours away doing their best to make it without mom. Our son sleeping while enduring horrible side effects from cancer’s attack on his body. Alone. The enemy loves to wreck our alone time. Time better spent in the Presence of God can become a proverbial prison when the accuser comes calling. When our life falls apart, this is when most will take inventory of all the broken pieces set to restore “normal” yet God uses it to remind us that He is the only one who will never leave us or forsake us. He comes close to the brokenhearted. He heals us. Revives and renews us. Changes us from the inside out even when we kind of liked who we were.
My health fails; my spirits droop, yet God remains! He is the strength of my heart; he is mine forever!
What is failing in your life? What is drooping? Life is hard. Faced with challenges and uncertainty every single day apart from God – it is only in the Lord that trust births faith and confidence in the One who remains! He is the Strength of my heart. He desires to be the Strength of Your Heart not just in eternity but now AND forevermore.
But as for me, I get as close to him as I can! I have chosen him, and I will tell everyone about the wonderful ways he rescues me.
Closer. It is time to move in closer. Deep is calling to deep today. If you are asking, “Jesus, is that you?” He will always say, “Come!” It is time to leave the safety and security of a sinking ship and move towards Him. His desire is for us to come closer. To live in His Presence. How do I get there? Time. You give Him your time. The most precious commodity that you have for once a moment has past it is gone forever and cannot be replaced. Jesus is the Word of God. (John 1:14) You cannot know Him much less love Him if you are strangers. Get in the Word of God today! Find your promise. If you spend the rest of your life digging in the Word of God – you will never exhaust His Promises for your life. Ask God to fill you with His Spirit. Stir it up. Fan the flames of the tremendous gift of God’s Spirit that He has given you. He will be your Helper on this journey to the end of self and full manifestation of Jesus Christ as Savior, Lord and Lover of your heart and soul. We must insist and persist in our pursuit of God will our whole heart to see His Plan unfold completely. His Presence has a place reserved for us. He is awaiting our arrival. Spending time with my grandson is my favorite time – but it will never take the place of time spent with the One who thought I was to die for!