Feeling Alone

Feeling Alone

Psalm 91:1-2 (NLT) Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty. This I declare about the Lord: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; he is my God, and I trust him.

What is the first thing you do when you walk in a crowded room? It is human nature to scan the occupants to find a familiar face. It doesn’t matter how well you might know them just finding comfort in the known. If lucky enough to locate someone, you immediately approach to escape the awkward discomfort of begin alone. There is comfort in our tribe. Human are driven to form relationships. It is an emotional void that all must fill even the introvert who does it from the comfort of home. It is in singleness that insecurities and vulnerability rises. The enemy makes us feel unwanted and unloved in the seasons marked by solitude. But what if it is all by design…

When I was a teenager, our family moved from Georgia to Florida again. My mother had a strong desire for our family to get connected in the mega Baptist church in our city. She decided that it would be good for me to go to a youth retreat. I was not thrilled but obediently packed an overnight bag. I will never forget pulling up to the church that day with rows of buses and no less than one hundred kids. It was crazy. My mom found her friend who would become my Sunday school teacher. After a quick introduction, I turned to find my mom gone and me all alone. I knew absolutely no one. Thankfully after the retreat, I made many new friends and relationships that are still in my life today. Yet, in all the good that came of it even though almost four decades have passed, I still remember the scary awkwardness of feeling all alone.

There are days and experiences in my adulthood that do not feel much different. Walking in crowded rooms and feeling all alone even when I know people. Seasons of solitude when I am just not connecting with family and friends so I feel isolated. What if these moments are not coincidental but rather divine? Times when I might find comfort in the created rather than my Creator. Honestly most of my “friends” from back in the day are merely acquaintances on social media as time and travel have separated us. The same can happen in our relationship with Jesus running off to “do” rather than continuing to “be”. I must live in the Presence of God – moment by moment and day by day. He is my life source. However, if distance begins to separate us – God will not stop until He draws us close to Him again.

He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; he is my God, and I trust him. God is a jealous God who loves us with overwhelming perfect love and complete affection. There are seasons of slipping that are not filled with sin but rather distance. It is when His Heart for us reaches past the noise of others to draw us close to Him. God doesn’t need us. He desires us. There is a big difference. To know the Lord as the Lover of our soul allows us to see past scripture as dutiful obligation to the loving gesture of God’s Goodness and Faithfulness that it really is. God will alone be our refuge and place of safety in the personal and deep conviction that He IS MY God and I can trust Him in all things. In Psalm 91, I encourage you to read past just the first two verses to the truth of such a relationship. HE WILL… rescue you from every trap, protect you from deadly disease, cover you with His Feathers, shelter you in His Wings, and His Promises are your armor and protection. You do not have to live in fear, anxiety or dread because God has you so close nothing can penetrate His Presence and harm you.

Psalm 91:9 (NLT) If you make the Lord your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter.

How close are you today? Do you feel isolated? Alone? Like nobody cares? Maybe just maybe you are naturally scanning your life for willing participants rather than listening to the heart of God? We all do it. Getting caught up in our natural need for affection and affirmation missing the greatest and most beneficial relationship ever formed. Jesus Christ allows us to have a right relationship with God. The God whose very name and identity is love. The One who promises to never leave us or forsake us. The same Voice that tells us that there is NOTHING that can ever separate us from His Love. Are you looking for in all the wrong places? People are people. Infallible creatures who despite their best effort cannot always meet our expectations. We serve a loving and living God who promises to exceed them. We choose the occupants of our life. We decided who to invest our time and energy in. We determine who is worthy of our heart. If you…

Psalm 27:8 (NLT) My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.” And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.”

In a world filled with people, loneliness is seldom because there is nobody around. It is the lack of connection on a deeper level that is desired. People live crowded lives yet feel isolated and alone. The Lord has blessed me with a large family. I have many friends. I am almost never ever all by myself. There are still time I feel alone. But when I “feel” alone, I have learned to press into my Savior. It is generally a void that only He can fill. It is usually not our first inclination to turn to Jesus for companionship or the need to belong. I don’t always turn to Him first. However, that is exactly what He would love for us to do. To live in a relationship that is similar to that we seek with other people. What if your “need” is really God whispering “Come and talk with me.” I want to spend quality time with you. What if it is really His Spirit inviting you to a deeper level of intimacy and greater realm of blessing. How will your heart respond?

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